I want to be able to love again.. To be able to put myself out there again. To not think of the bad things that could happen. To not think of the bad that could come out of things. I wish I could be that happy, carefree, loving person again. I want it all back. You pushed me to the point that I’m scared of love. I thought I knew what love was, but really I don’t. I don’t know what it feels like to get butterflies or to feel wanted. I just know how bad it feels when you realize it’s not what you thought.. That all of it was a lie.. Thanks for that.